Tuesday, January 7, 2014
I love homeschooling. I really do.
…it just isn't as easy as I thought it would be.
I had such high hopes and expectations. I planned on getting ahead in my work. I planned on being so much smarter than I was in public school. I planned to keep on hanging out with my school friends. I planned on getting away from all the drama public school brought.
Well, my plans fell through. Big time.
Trying to adjust to homeschooling has brought hardship. I sometimes worry about getting behind on schoolwork and not graduating. I never see my friends from school anymore, and now I ache at the thought of them because I miss them so much. I never wanted a lot of things to happen, but they did.
There is something I've learned about homeschooling, though. Despite all those struggles, it has been good for me. My character is improving. My knowledge in general is increasing. I am free to learn about anything, and in the way that's best for me. My family is getting closer. I can pursue my passions more. Really, I could go on forever. But the best part is now my school focuses on Jesus. I am getting to know more and more about Him everyday, and because of that, my faith in Him has grown. He has become my first priority again, and not getting attention from everyone or getting straight A's on my report card. Sure, my own plans may have failed, but God's plan is bigger and better. And that's what gets me through those hard times.